When I Close My Eyes

When I close my eyes and think of you, I can taste you. 

Taste the mint from your toothpaste and the bourbon you use to drink. 

I use to get drunk off your lips, your essences.

I close my eyes and it's like you're there with me; on top of me, inside me. 

I can still feel your hands on my body. The warmth around my neck as you hold me still, while you take what I give freely. 

I can still feel you move inside me, and it makes me miss the way your body could bring mine pleasure. 

I mourn the loss of you against my skin and the sounds of ecstasy that filled the room. 

When I close my eyes you're right here with me, right until the very end. 

-Nicole Banks

Let Me

Let me

Wrap myself around your soul

Let me

Deep inside

And have you lose control

I want to

Crush and break your will

Just so

I can have my way with you

I'll promise to go slow at first

But once I start

You''ll beg for more

I'll show you

Just how good torture can be

And once I'm done

I'll be all you crave

Nano WriMo Who's excited??????

That time of year is upon us once again.....

It's

Nano

WriMo

YASSSSSS

On Nov 1st all the writers of the world bunker down and keep themselves glued to their laptop/computer/ipad/writing device and try to finish a novel in 30 days.

30 days you say? Impossible!

Actually I've done it. lol I know a few people that have gotten their first draft done during Nanowrimo and campnano. 

I love and hate this time of year. I love it cuz it forces me to write. I hate it because, it forces me to write. But I will say because of nanowrimo I was able to get Into Pieces done and published. So thank you NanoWriMo.

I have a dilemma this year though. I can only log one "novel" into their system and track my results/stats that way. I'm currently in between two books right now. I have no idea which one to pick!!!!!

I have literally like two weeks to figure this out and I'm stressed! I know if I put one down (right now it's the Chase and Kris story; my continuation to my Shattered Heart Series), that story won't come to me. (It's the way things work in my brain). 

I want to participate this year, I just don't think I'm going to "log" my work. I have two dominate stories that are demanding to be told. So I guess it's going to be a fight for which alpha is the strongest lol.

Any writers participating in NanoWriMo? If you have no idea what that is here's the link lol:

http://nanowrimo.org/

My Love for Writing

I recently picked up a pen pal. (I know this person but they are no longer close to me and I thought it would be cool to be pen pals).

Let me start by saying, when I was younger my fourth grade teacher (I think) had this program were the entire class received pen pals. I had two and honestly? I thought it was the best thing ever. I can't remember if we actually got to meet them, (it was a long time ago) But I do remember that up until Junior High school, I actually kept up with one of the pen pals. It was good to have a sound board on the things going on in my life. 

I also believe there was something amazing and personal about it. Then the whole tech boom happened and we tried to stay pen pals through email and it just fell through.

Back to the present:

So me and this person are writing each other letters and I forgot how much I actually enjoy hand written letters and just writing with a pen in paper in general. (My hands however hate it lol old age and all that fun stuff).

I'm excited again to check the mail box. I hope there's a new letter in there instead of bills. (Hello adulthood) I'm excited to know the person received words I penned specifically for them. It's intimate in the best way possible–it's personal. They get to physically touch the words I wrote with a pen and not something that was typed up. 

I feel with technology you get to hide behind a screen and keystrokes. You short hand everything instead of taking the time out to say exactly what it is you mean.

In short- write more letters, not emails, not text messages. HAND WRITTEN LETTERS. They truly are everything,

I actually have to run now and pen my next letter to my pen pal lol

$20 doesn't get you poop

Before I start this rant, I would like to point out that when I spend actual cash if I get a five dollar bill back, I put it away and do not spend it again. It's a very effective saving money strategy. (I was able to pay of a credit card and put money down towards an apartment and pay for editing services on my book). I think everyone should try it, you'd be surprised how quickly you'll amass a nice chunk of change.

Moving on

So I went out for my lunch break. (I bring lunch to work so I do not have to spend more money then necessary. Seriously it's like ten plus dollars a day on lunch. That sh*t adds up...p.s is it okay to curse on here? LOL)

I decide hey let me get some coffee, I wanted a mid day treat and I didn't have any coffee this morning. I brought a medium from Dunkin Donuts it totaled around $3.26. Boom handed the lady a 20 and I got back a ten and a five and a dollar and some change. 

You guessed it! Five dollar bill went into my secret pocket to put into my savings and now I'm left with a ten dollar bill and a dollar bill.

Kept on going for my walk and then boom I realized I needed scrunchies (hair ties). I stopped at a girly store and went in got three for $5.50. 

Handed the lady my ten dollar bill and got back change and $4.

So lets recap:

And to save time we shall round up.
Started with a $20
Coffee: -$4
Got back $16.00
took out the five -$5.00
Left with: - $11
Needed Scrunchies- $6.00
Left with: five dollar bills.


Yes I know what you're thinking why am I paying that much for A) Coffee and B) Scrunchies?

Easy: 1) I like to treat myself from time to time and 2) I'm a curly haired girl. We go through scrunchies like water. I needed the scrunchies. 

Anyway moral of the story? $20 in New York gets you nada!

Quotes I love!

Here are some quotes to get you through your Thursday. (Some of these will be from both my books Shattered and Into Pieces).

“There is no surer foundation for a beautiful friendship than a mutual taste in literature.”

— P.G. Wodehouse

“When Life hands you lemons. Make Orange Juice. Then Sit back and watch them wonder how you did it” 

― Nicole Banks

"We are all Searching for someone whose demons play well ours."

-Unknown

"The spirit endures through the physical, no matter how time has decayed and destroyed the original vision." (This was from a book I read, I just can not for the life of me remember which one).

“...Get lost in it. Life is intoxicating if it's lived right. You should never hold anything back. There's entirely too much to explore and experience and taste and touch; and we're never given enough time to do it all.” 

― Nicole Banks, Shattered

“Love like life should be maddening to the point of fulfillment. It should make the sun shine brighter, and when they look at you, the earth should never be standing still.” 

― Nicole Banks, Into Pieces

“That's what you do when you love someone. You accept their baggage and deal with the shit life throws at you along the way. You just learn to become a team and deal with it together. That's the only way you're going to survive it.” 

― Nicole Banks, Into Pieces

“I was bullied a lot because I was a midget in this land of giants I lived in. Sometimes, my only weapon was whatever I could throw. I couldn’t be held responsible. I didn’t choose the short life; the short life chose me.” 

― Nicole Banks, Into Pieces

My Love For You:

I am a writer and I love writing. Whether it's poem's, quotes (I am the quote queen). Or of course my stories lol (I will venture into fan fiction one day!)

Here's a Poem I wrote for someone special:

My Love for you opened my eyes

And my heart t what it truly means to love

You were my best friend, turned lover, turned my everything.

Your Love has empowered me to continue to be who I am.

Your love has never been discouraging or hurtful

Your love has made me feel light and giddy and childlike

Your love has been my backbone when I thought I was weak.

Your love is a gift I treasure.

Music you need in your life asap

I'm such a music snob. LOL (Yes that's such a thing). So what am I listening to currently? These are the songs I believe you need in your life....like right now! (Some will have links to youtube some wont. If I can't find a good version no link lol sorry).

The weeknd Feat Eminem- The Hills Remix-  http://bit.ly/1LuEoEs
Janet Jackson- Dammmmn baby
The Neighbourhood- The Beach- http://bit.ly/1VcX3pA
The Weeknd- Angel (Honestly anything by this man needs to be on your ipod)
Major Lazer- Powerful- http://bit.ly/1DC3eLN


This is just a few songs. I will update as more songs pop up. If I do all the songs now, I'll be here all night! LOL

New to blogging so forgive me

I was told countless times, "Why aren't you blogging???" I would just shrug and say, I don't know. LOL!

But I've finally caved and here it is. Please forgive the appearance and everything else. It's a work in progress.

Well here's to my first post!